3.23.2009

Sigh...


I don't have much to say and probably won't stop back by until early April.

Don't know why. Maybe something will cheer me up before then.

I doubt it.

Maybe this will sum up what's wrong with me:

Wind on the Wheat
You ask me for the sweetest sound
mine ears have ever heard?
sweeter than the ripples' plash,
or trilling of a bird,
Than tapping of the rain-drops
upon the roof at night,
Than the sighing of the pine-trees
on yonder mountain height

And I tell you, these are tender,
yet never quite so sweet
As the murmur and the cadence
of the wind across the wheat.

30 comments:

sweetcopswife said...
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Mary said...

I love the melancholy of the poem, and I can completely relate, but I hope you find your way out of the doldrums.

To answer your question, yes, DH is a firefighter, and of course I love his gear. (Get your mind out of the gutter, I'm talking about his turnout gear.) ;-)

Although in reality, that is only a possibility while the gear is fairly new, because after a few fires, even if you wash it, it stinks pretty badly.

copswife said...

If you need a break, then you need a break. That's life.

I'm sad that you are sad and not going to post for a while though. What you need is a tropical vacation. Can I come?!?

PS I love my husband's gear too, and you can let your mind wallow in the gutter all you want, if you want. :-)

Slamdunk said...

Maybe someone will piss you off before then and you'll be inspired to post...

ReformingGeek said...

Focusing positive energy your way!

Take care.

Meadowlark said...

Slamdunk, a lot of it is the "taunting masses" in Oakland.

Even typing it causes the weight in my heart to nearly overwhelm me.

But it's not just that. I'm tired. And sad. And did I mention glum?

Sigh. Go type something amazing that'll cheer me up. But you're right, pissed is much more likely to get me to post.

Selous Scout said...

It is hard to be positive with all the doom and gloom that is mainstream "News".

I am focusing on spring and summer gardening to lift the "cloud" that seems to settle over me whenever I scan the headlines.

I like to look thru the Seed and Plant catalogs and dream of how I would turn my yard into and orchard, vineyard and vegetable garden.

Meadowlark said...

Scout - that's part of it. Husband nixed the plan to cut down a couple of trees, thus not enough sun for a decent garden. And nothing "allowed" out front. Sigh.

Dori said...

Peace to you too, my friend.

LILHOUSEMAMA said...

why cant you plant a few tomato plants in the front yard?? Or in a container?? Who says no? the city?

no doom and glooming...you need a mikes hard lemonade...(wink,wink)

Loved the poem! Hang in there babe, we all have days/months like that...all you can do is hang in there, and hope for the best!
(I'll cross my fingers for you, on the container garden!)

fullfreezer said...

I hope you feel better soon. For me, it has always been the sound of the wind in the corn- not as subtle as wheat but still....
Hang in there. I keep hoping for good news to cheer me up but I'm still waiting.
Judy

Jean & Vic said...

When the winds of march do blow, trees fall over here. winds strong enough to knock you over are not unheard of, driving rain down on you when the sun hides behind the scudding clouds that cover horizon to horizon. it can weary the soul. What can be done when the weather blows like this, and the rain keeps you from flying a kite? Of all the things I enjoy the most, making something is probably the best. Make soap, or knit, or spin some yarn. Even cooking helps get me to feeling better about the weather. as for the doom and gloom on the tube, I turn it off. From the time I was a child, All I can remember is doom and gloom. If you want positive news, make it yourself. go visit a nursing home and make some people smile. visit a veterans home and say hi to everyone there who is capable of intelligent conversations. take them cookies or another snack you made to enjoy too, they will look forward to seeing you again.
If that does not help, look around where you live and realize how much better off you are than some of the poor souls in the world who do not have work or a hope for finding it.
In other words, count your blessings before you start counting other peoples sorrows as your own.
Me, I am looking forward to going out fishing here pretty quick like as rivers and streams should be opening soon. hopefully they will be thawed enough to get to and pull fish from;-)
As a side note, the word verification is the word Calmer (is this a hint?)

LauraB said...

It's damnably hard to have any sort of cheer, no?

As for the taunting? Big city life. Coming from ATL, it's just how things are.

When I get rough around the edges, I try to go here - it helps remind me that I'm very fortunate.
VERY.
http://www.trevorsblog.com/

Loving Annie said...

Hating city life, part of which is not being able to have a meaningful garden -- and mourning the 4 Oakland officers who were killed so senselessly would bring anyone down, Meadowlark...

Life sometimes just brings you to tears... So many sensless tragedies, it just drains your energy and hope...

((hugs))

Oz Girl said...

Oh so sorry to hear you are down and having the doldrums... I try to stay away from all the bad news, or else it WILL get me down sometimes. It is hard for me to avoid the news because hubby watches it every single freakin' day...

Wind was atrocious today in KS... my lil 5 ft 3 in body was practically knocked down several times while we were putting in a few fence posts earlier today...

Hang in there girlie, and I hope something pisses you off... soon!

DayPhoto said...

That was beautiful! Can I help?

Linda
http://coloradofarmlife.wordpress.com

Homekeeping Heart said...

Meadowlark, chirrup! I do understand the mully grubs and I hope that is all it is. Take care, dear friend!

The Hermit said...

Life sucks and then you die. I know the feeling.

The Hermit said...

Woo Wee! I saw you letting old Dick Dog and Abraham have it over on The Other Mikes blog. Thank God I haven't ever made you mad at me. ;-)

Meadowlark said...

Hermit, I was actually embarrassed at my outburst. I'd forgotten that an old Marine never loses the ability to curse.

Slamdunk said...

Ah, ok, the situation in Oakland is sad and frustrating. I hope you feel better ma'am.

Killi said...

Hope the chicks arrive soon to cheer you up

HENHOUSE POTTERY said...

Would some chicken pictures cheer you up? I know that works for me. Well, that and alcohol. Which might explain why the chicken pics are effective.

Belle said...

Ahh Meadowlark.
What up Doc?
Take your time...

Christopher said...

Find your muse soon. I'm running out of blogs to read.

risa said...

Hang in, sweetie.

The Hermit said...

Hope things are going well. Just stopped by to see what was up.

Momma Val said...

Cheer up! AND see you in April! Thanks for stopping by my blog :) I've officially added you to my list, hope that's ok? I am feeling a little better that spring is almost here but have little patience for the weather this time of year. Being inside a small house with a toddler all day, day after day, all winter long gets me down. Happy to be with him just blue about the cabin fever.

RazorFamilyFarms.com said...

Breaks are part of blogging and part of life. We all need them and sometimes we need them to last a long time. We love you and will be right here when you return.

Sandra G. said...

A break is as good as a change. Take some time for yourself - we'll still be here when you ome back.

Nice poem, by the way.